| 002. I feel utterly ridiculous. |
[June 30] |
Warded Private:
I really hate it when people whinge about not having someone in their lives. I get that most people want to share their lives with someone, but life's not supposed to just be about that. I love it otherwise! I really do! I love my book shoppe, and I love the customers who come in on a regular basis. I love that I'm expanding the children's section and that I'm working out the logistics of installing a tea and coffee set because I've seen it in Muggle shoppes and they seem popular. I love that I get to sell books to people, and maybe those books will impact them. I love my friends!
It's just that sometimes I feel sort of silly and unlikeable. It's been a long time since I was engaged and everything, and it's not really the way it ended that is bothering me so much as my brother and sister suddenly having significant others. Parvati's was a whole path of self-discovery, and I really don't want belittle her or demean her or her relationship, but I'm just feeling alone. Here I am half-heartedly telling myself that I don't mind really. But then I figure in Lisa and Seamus getting back together -- and how fantastic and brilliant is that anyway? -- and Lavender's seeing Neil Bradley. I'm just feel really alone.
What's really stupid is that it usually doesn't bother me! I don't know why it does today; I'm just overly emotional. Oh great, that means I'm going to I never used to care about this stuff! Why am I suddenly moping in a corner? Is it really true that the closer a woman gets to thirty, the less desirable she is? Is it really easier to be killed by a terrorist than to get married over a certain age?
I'm going to go crawl in a hole until this feeling just GOES AWAY!
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| 001. The Monster at the End of the This Book |
[June 05] |
I read in the paper this morning that someone is trying to make a magical version of The Monster at the End of This Book, but using a Demiguise named Demi (how original) in place of the puppet Grover. I know that they're trying to work for the rights to be able to, but I feel this is sacrilege. Can't people come up with anything original any more?
Warded Private:
I didn't see that coming. Not in a million years. That's not to say that I have any issues with it. I really don't. I think it's fantastic, myself. Hermione might be able to time my wild sister, get her to think a little more seriously about her future. The idea really does make me smile, though. I knew something was going on, but I didn't know what. All those secret, late-night rendezvous were a little suspicious, but I completely didn't think it had anything to do with Hermione. I figured there was some shady ex in the middle of it, and Parvati needed to keep it secret because she knew I'd tear his head off, depending on who it was. Little did I know...! I'm really and truly happy for her. This is her longest relationship, which really tells me something about how she feels.
If I was worried about the situation, I would be more worried for Hermione than Parvati. My sister's left a few broken hearts behind her, and the last thing I'd want is for Hermione's to be one of them.
I don't think mum and dad will be too happy about the situation, but I think it would just be an initial thing. I think mum will handle it the worst and take the longest to get over it, simply because of how close she and Parvati are. Dad... well, he works with all sorts of people, so I'm sure he's learned that some people are just gay. I haven't mentioned Dev in all of this because I'm fairly certain he'll react the way I did. Speaking of which...
Warded to Devdan Patil:
I hope my seriously cool, hip older brother wouldn't mind stopping by the shop after work today to visit his exhausted, but lonely sister after work today.
I know, I know, it's Friday -- date night -- but I could use my brother after having dinner with Parvati last night. Sometimes it feels like we're all never in the same room.
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| Survey! |
[May 25] |
I certainly haven't been shopping for any new shoes,
and I certainly haven't been spreading myself around.
I still only travel by foot and by foot it's a slow climb,
but I'm good at being uncomfortable
so ( I can't stop changing all the time. )
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